Crush that crashed. *Hopefully*

 Bismillah.


Okay, I like this one namja (man). It's almost 4 years I've been liking him. And it's like one miracle for me. Because I'm the kind of person that I can't like something for a long time. It's like seasons :P Sometimes I like this, then I won't like that anymore.

Even if an actor or something, susah ah nak suka lama2. But this one person had been killing me for almost 4 years now. My kryptonite. And lately, I just can't stop thinking about him. Semua status insta,wasepp suma nak cakap pasal dia jaa. Dok pikiaq pasai kawen suma siap. *Istighfar*

Pastu aku rasa over sangat. and I should stop. So aku pon dok kata macam2 kat diri sendiri. "hang tutt tuut tuut. hg tak layak utk dia. blah blah yadda yadda ect ect" But I don't know why, diri sendiri mcm tak paham suma tuu. macam tak heran suma tu. tak peduli. tak kesah. Dok stalk tak kira, buka wasepp and write "I missed you" and delete it back. stalk dia, a girl he like.  a girl that like him. I can say that I was crazy then.

Until today arrived, and I went out with a good friend of mine. Then aku rasa macam "Crush aku mesti suka orang macam ni."  She is lovely, and have a very kind and good heart. Then baru aku rasa, "Aku sapa nak kawen dengan laki macam dia?" Very insecure. so tak jadi ah suka kat dia. *Hopefully* and pastu terus rasa taknak ah kawen. I rather stay in a house with 20 cats ........ no I don't like cats. With 20 bunnies. OVER. tapi aku dah biasa hidup depend kat orang kot. Macam impossible ja aku boleh hidup sorang2. It's okay. Allah knows the best. Smile :)

A happy dream makes your life more miserable when you wake up. - Man From Another Star.